i may have told this story before, not sure
my last memory of field service, and this might not actally be the last time i went out...just the last thing i remember, i got into a conversation with a woman who was a lesbian. we had a very nice talk about religions and beliefs and christianity. she was pretty receptive to what i was saying. by that time, my strategy at the door had shifted. i stopped preaching doom and gloom and focused on paradise. who wants to hear the world is ending and all that nonsense? besides...isn't it all about the hope of paradise?
anyway at at some point i invited her to come check out a meeting and that's when she asked me....
"what do you guys feel about homosexuality? i'm a lesbian."
now, apparently my face tends to be pretty expressive lol. so i have NO idea what my face looked like lol. i've always been pretty liberal socially. to me, good people are good people no matter what they believe, who they love, whatever. i always believed people were just BORN that way and they didn't chose to like the same sex anymore than i 'chose' to like the opposite sex. i juust thought it was satan being a prick and brdening people with an awful load to bear.
i'm ashamed i even thought satan had anything to do with that. especially while studying calculus and physics lol.
anyway, i lied through my teeth saying that no one would judge her, no one would care, etc. i certainly wouldn't and would welcome her with open arms. she was pretty hot so that's not too surprising
trth is, OF COURSE she'd be judged by the others.
she pressed me on that. could she love whomever she wanted? if she wanted a relationship with another woman (that IS what she was a attracted to after all) what would happen? would she have to look towards men if she wanted to have a family?
lies lies lies, FROM ME and i don't think i'll ever forgive myself for that. i felt bad as soon as the responses came out of my mouth. not because i was lying (despite jayhmbg's holy hogwash all over me from the prayer at the meeting for field service) but because we both knew that if she joined, she'd be fucked as far as LIFE was concerned.
it wasn't fair. it wasn't right.
i wish i knew where she was so i could apologize. it's been at least 7 years and i STILL think about that.
jehovah's witnesses lie. they lie constantly when at the doors or when condcting studies or at the platform, or when giving counsel to others, in order to "prove a point" and bring"others into the flock"
i.e. indoctrinate others into the cult
you might not ever get her to see the light on that one.
